Why I Write

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” 
― 
Maya AngelouI Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

I started writing and consequently created this blog based on a suggestion by my friend Barney Lee.

If you read the My Journey page you will learn that Barney is a very good friend and mentor who had and still has a positive influence on my life.

During one of our periodic phone conversations he mentioned to me that I had a good story to tell.  The whole aspiring musician who drops out of the business to raise and support his family, then one day has a life changing experience that tells him it’s time to return to what he loves and do it before time runs out story.

I never really thought about it being a good story or even a very interesting story, at least not until I was successful.

What is success?

When I was younger and starting out to me success would have been achieving some sort of star status.

Now success to me would be contributing to a product that I am proud to have my name associated with.  By product I mean song or recording, a work of art.

Or maybe it’s simply being able to make music again after 25 years of being away from it.  Just being able to say I am a drummer.

I did raise two kids, put them through school without any student loans, paid off all debt including my home, and managed to stay married to the same woman for over 35 years.  That’s pretty successful in this day and age.

Let’s get back to writing.

I found a school type composition book that my wife had bought to organize a pool party for my grandson.  She only needed to use about 9 pages.  We had the party so I tore out the 9 pages and then put the book on my desk at home.

It was perfect.  It fit in my brief case and was easy to write in.

I took it to work and started writing over my lunch break, about 20 to 30 minutes each day.

When I was done writing I would put it back in my brief case.  Then I would usually get up and head to the restrooms.

As I walked down the hall I noticed how different I felt.  I felt good about myself. I felt at ease.  I was amazed at how relaxed and relieved I was after doing this daily writing exercise.

At first when I was recalling my past, especially my musical past I was escaping to what I now look back on as some of the best days of my life.

Or maybe it’s realizing what I went through and that I survived, showing me that it all can be taken in stride.

Now each day as I continue to write down my thoughts there is relief in being able to share what’s inside.  Thoughts that were almost impossible to share with anyone else can now come out.

My wife is about the only person I feel comfortable with sharing these thoughts.  Barney Lee was the only outlet I had for sharing my musical experiences.  I always felt both of them would understand what I was trying to convey.

But we have a pretty full house with kids, a grandkid and dogs.  My wife and I rarely get the moments to share these thoughts.

And Barney Lee lived 250 miles away, recently moved over 1000 miles away and is busy.  He’s just the type that always has something going on.  So I feel fortunate when I get to spend some quality time talking to him.

When I use to make trips to see him in Pittsburgh I would spend the days before my trip going over in my head and writing down all the topics I wanted to discuss to get his feedback and counsel.  Sometimes I would write it down just to make sure I didn’t forget anything.

So writing has become the third person in my life for sharing what’s on my mind.

I guess that’s what is so relaxing and why I feel like a weight has been lifted every time I write.  It’s become a habit and I’m glad I started it.

I still find My Journey interesting to me.  I hope you do as well and the rest of my posts.

I can look at the past with a smile, recalling the good stuff.  I honestly don’t remember that much of the bad stuff.

It’s important for me to tell my stories.

© Otis P Smith and About the Groove, 2015. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Otis P Smith and About the Groove with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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