This is an entry I wrote in one of my journals right before the holidays in 2014. I originally posted it in September of 2015 but I thought it would make a nice post prior to this year’s Thanksgiving Holiday.
This is my final entry in this book and the final one before the Thanksgiving holiday break. I thought I would take the time to write down some promises I need to make to myself and keep, promises for the upcoming New Year.
I want to be happy.
I have what I thought were all the ingredients necessary to be happy.
I have a pretty good jump on my financial security yet I never stop worrying about it. My home and cars are paid off. I have no debt.
I have the love of good woman who is the love of my life.
I have two healthy, grownup, great children and a fine, smart and handsome grandson.
So what do I need?
I need to start doing what I love and I am passionate about.
That is music and writing. Both of these have the potential for income. I feel I am smart enough to utilize my talents, wit and intelligence to realize that potential.
But through all of it I must be honest in what I say and do.
So here are my promises to myself for 2015. (I’ll follow up with my progress after each of them.)
- In 2015 I am going to have a blog. I will write and try to grow a community with that blog. (Well just by reading this you know I at least got half of this one done. I’m still working on growing the community and I have a long way to go.) 2016- Still blogging and growing a community it may still be baby steps but it’s growing.
- I will continue to seek improved playing conditions while continuing to increase my practice time. What I mean by improved playing conditions is constantly seeking better players that challenge me. (If you read my previous posts about “The Band I Left” you know I did move on with trying to find better playing conditions. I believe that online collaboration with musicians I have worked with in the past and new acquaintances to be made will help improve this situation as the prospects of good working bands are slim. I have increased my practice times by 20 to 30 minutes per session.) 2016 – in a good working band.
- I will setup a home recording studio to be able to collaborate online with musicians around the world. (The studio is setup. It’s basic and it works. I have been collaborating with some musicians I have worked with in the past. Right now I am working on improving my technical and engineering skills before spreading out but the basics are in place.) 2016 – Starting over – have my equipment but since I moved to Florida this year I need to convert a bedroom in my house into a studio. Have so many other projects right now but this is a goal for the end of the year.
- I will write more poetry, enough to fill a book. (The pace of my poetry writing has dropped off a bit in the second half of this year, but in the first I half I put together a file of all my works to send off to the copyright office and it totaled 105 pages.) 2016 – I really need to get back on this once the home improvements and studio is complete.
- I will become the creative, passionate person that I want to be and use my talents to support myself and no longer be dependent on the whims of other for my financial well being. (This is more of a long term goal but by working on promises 1 through 4 this can become a reality.) 2016 – Ditto
I’m 57 years old. (Now I’m 59.) I hope and pray I have at least 20 more “good” years left in me. What is a little scary is 20 years is five years less than the time I have been working at my present job.
When I was young I use to think that somehow I was meant for greatness.
I don’t care about greatness but I do know that I was meant to do something more than what I have done.
I promise myself that I will discover what that is and make it happen.
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