This is the final piece in my short series of posts about my writing habits or better yet the loss of my writing habits. The previous two posts were originally drafted back in September of 2016 shortly after I had made the move from Pennsylvania to Florida. This piece I drafted, edited and posted today.
How far have I come along with my new writing habits? Well, not as much as I would like, that’s for sure.
Looking back at my composition books and reviewing the dates that I have been writing, I can see just how much my writing has slowed down. At one point over the past six months I went an entire month without writing a single new post.
Prior to my move in September of 2016 it would take me a little under three months to fill up all 200 pages of my composition book. And I would have the front and back crammed with notes of new ideas.
The last composition book that I filled with posts took me eight months. Reviewing my current book, it looks like I am back to writing something at least once a week. I use to write something at least every working day, 5 days a week.
Honestly, right now, I have to force myself to write.
I don’t think it’s because of burn out. I don’t dread having to write, in fact as I am writing this piece I am once again feeling the joy and release of writing.
So what is stopping me from writing on a daily basis?
I could say I’m just too busy, but I don’t think that’s the issue.
My regular day job still has me working full time hours even though it is from my home. I am in a band that is working on a weekly basis which takes up another portion of my time. And since I am in a band and back into a much more regular flow with music, I am spending more time writing and recording my own music. That is filling up a space in my time and giving me a creative release that I haven’t had in quite some time.
I am busier than what I was before I moved.
Now that I am working from my home I don’t have the mandated lunch hour that I use to utilize for my writing time. There was an outside structure that created a space that I use to take advantage of and it is gone.
Life is full of holes and spaces.
Sometimes we just fill up those holes and spaces with little things that really don’t contribute to the quality of our life. Or we fill them up with what we think is important to reaching out goals but it’s really just adding noise to an already bustling life.
Sometimes we have no goals and just fill them up with the easy things to avoid the hard things like setting goals and working towards them.
It’s like music.
Any musician can tell you that the holes and spaces are what’s most important to a song, a sound.
The space may be there for you to drop in a tasteful, perfect note or notes, one that contributes and servers the song. Or the space is there just to be there, to be left alone and allowed to do its job.
You must choose very carefully what you do with those holes and spaces, do you leave them alone or is it begging to have something dropped in. The way you learn what to do is through doing, experimenting and learning.
But firsts, before you can decide what to do with a hole or space, you must create them. If you’re just playing right through them you will never need to decide what to do with them and the song becomes boring, mundane and lacks emotion. Emotion is what music is all about.
I guess I need to start creating more holes and spaces in my life before I start trying to decide what to do with them.
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